Not sure why tears are welling up in my eyes as I type, but they are. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
So many emotions.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This does not become second nature. Being a pancreas outside of your body does not become normal. It will never be normal. New normal, old normal. Whatever. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to wake up and worry if your son lived through the night.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to breathe a sigh of relief when you hear him shut off his morning alarm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to wonder if he made the drive without treating a low.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to watch my 20-year-old son with panic in his eyes as he realizes his number is dropping faster than he can catch it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to check your blood sugar every time you eat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to rely on faulty technology to make life-and-death decisions.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to think about how heat might affect your numbers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to troubleshoot why insulin would not be working correctly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is not normal to fight with insurance to get insulin approved.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
None of this is normal. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But we get through it. Every day. Normal or not. We have to. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Not sure why tears are welling up in my eyes as I type, but they are. So many emotions. This does not become second nature. Being a pancreas outside of your body does not become normal. It will never be normal. New normal, old normal. Whatever. It is not normal to wake up and worry … <\/p>\n